Wow life is amazing and God is an awesome wounder!

Here lately my life has been busy like really busy, it's been ok though. I guess it's been hard to live with out my mom, she is my everything but it's shit to have to deal with.

were you at

You are everything i have ever hoped for and now that i have lost you i dont know how to feel! most days i'm sad and feel alone. then other days i'm acting fake!

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You’re Worth It

As a little girl I was told that talking heals the soul, but being the little girl I was; I never listened. When I was little I was controlling and selfish. It was either my way or the highway but being like this put me through a lot of hard times. As I got older I never changed so being told no ticked me off and I hated life. Now I know that lives not about what I get its how I treat it. Knowing that I am Worth It.

            Last summer really hit me; I was going to McDonalds with my mom and I wanted a Big Mac and she didn’t get it for me. So when we pulled out I started to flip out and told her I would rather die then to eat a snack wrap. Her being a concerned mother toke me to the Hospital to have me evaluated. They detected depression and sent me to “Dover Behavioral heath System”.

           

DBHS

Being there scared the heck out of me. I was with other people, not in my own bed, and feeling more hopeless then ever. I didn’t understand why I was there and why these people treated me like I was crazy. Every day they asked me if I wanted to kill anyone or if I was seeing things and I just didn’t understand it. I stayed for 7 days in the inpatient part of the program. Then after that I went to the outpatient program for 3 months. I thought it would help me and my mothers problems… but this was the beginning.

CFF

After being discharged fully from the program I was put in IOP “Intensive outpatient Program.” With “Children and Family’s First.” When we first started the IOP program there was a lot of work to be done and we expected to fail. Through out this program we learned to value each other opinions and talk about things when we got angry with each other.

Part 1

About a year ago my life went into a downward spiral to Hell(another story). I thought that after this nobody would love me for what I am now.  Who wants a relationship with some that has so many problems just with one person. So I struggled going from guy 2 guy tryin to find that person that loved me for who I was and didn't look down on me because of what i been through.

A Dream come true

In this life i have been searching for that one person that completes me like a pie and i have finally found my last Peice! 11/13/12 (more tommorow)